I've been a little torn about what to write about the last few days too. Few good things happened, nothing particularly bad. I don't know that I have any great stories to share.
I guess that is kind of what happens when you spend most of your time sitting home alone in your apartment. Not that I'm complaining really... well... I guess I kinda am...
The best news of the week is that I'm no longer alone in my apartment. I made the decision to adopt a kitten from the Ottawa Humane Society. She is a silver medium hair and I call her Porsche. She is super adorable, super snuggly, and a little mouthy.
Went out last night for #thurspintsw. It was a good night. A little quieter than some weeks. Faced some hard questions too. It was uncomfortable, but not as uncomfortable as it could have been. I was asked what I do, and I was honest. I don't do anything. Except working on getting better mentally. There was talk of what I used to do. Wasn't totally sure how to answer. Truck driver doesn't totally fit in the with people at #thurspints. I feel pretty good about who I am and where I'm going.
The next hard question was, and this was probably the hardest one, what am I looking for? It donned on me in that moment. I haven't a clue. I wanted to get back to selling. I tried hard to get into the Apple Store. It may not seem like much, but the best job I ever had was working at Compucentre back in the day. It was a pleasure getting up to go to work in that place every day. The people, the atmosphere, the constantly changing environment. It kept me challenged me in a way that I haven't felt challenged since. I liked helping people pick out the right computer for them. I liked helping people when things went wrong.
Through the last couple of years, the real lesson I've learned as that I like helping people.
The question now is... how do I transfer that self realization that I want to help people into a rewarding career...
There was talk of going back to school to do the computer thing and then trying to get back into the government... that's not a bad option...
But are there other options? I'm not sure, but I'm certainly starting to think about other options. I'm not really ready to talk about any options, because I'm not sure I'm really well suited for them, but I suppose it's good to dream a little. I think with a little work I could be great at many many things. I could be great at anything I put my mind to.
The other question that came that really took me by surprise... Am I looking at dating? The first answer that came out of my mouth was 'No'. I was a little surprised by the honest answer. Honestly, there are women that I've met, that I enjoy spending time with. They are great people. Could something come from it in the future? I have no idea. Am I looking to 'date'? No. I'm looking to hang out with interesting people who I can just be myself with without any pressure. I've always gotten along better with women than men. I'm not totally a man's man. Not crazy about beer and football, not into hunting and guns. I don't know what to talk to men about. I can talk a little bit hockey. Fine, so I can get along with all women either. Lots of women who love sports and guns and hunting too.
I've been writing this post for like 3 hours, and am not really sure where I've gotten. I think I'll call it here for today. I've got more to say, but I guess I'll save some for tomorrow.
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